very, very queer.

she was supposed to be a lunatic -
but ended up the princess in my dreams.
strange, huh?
nope.
so much for that variety show.
half an hour later, she was still wearing that tiny "crown"...
and i heard a couple of people calling her "princess".
a title well befitting, i presume? haha.
yet in spite of that...
i tried hard not to make our eyes meet, the same time trying not to notice her too much...
all in vain.
physics time - group quiz.
first of two lost chances.
"gab, nabasa ko yung blog mo.. yung bintana ng mcdo."
"wala yun.." i quickly replied, obviously avoiding her eyes.
i won't believe it if she didn't notice how queer i am...
of course, who am i to be seen or taken note of? let alone... to her?
minutes after that quiz she was waving a purple balloon at me.
"gab, sumulat ka naman dito o..." pointing out the graffiti-covered face of the inflation.
a mental breakdown followed.
"um, mamaya na lang... baka pumutok eh.." quickly formulating an alibi.
she turned back, with a frown... (awh.. now that's sad.)
of course, as life goes on, i walk to and fro, pondering on things i tend to forget...
we happen to meet a few times, but no greetings from the shy guy.
english time: strike two.
groupmates again.. by chance.
i put a very good distance between us, and faced somewhere else.
dwelling in the silence. not talking to anyone.
now, now... anyone might ask what is happening within me...
i can't answer that for the moment.
i'm torn..
if all these could only be a nifty dream....
i could have woken up anytime -
only to find everything real.